late night blues

Another kinda emo post. haha.
this little space of mine that seems to be collecting and bearing witness to all my morose moments.

especially now that i'm in a relationship

i'm not sure whether im expecting too much, demanding too much.
am i really making too much sacrifice?

what is religion?
what is love?
how much does he have to give before i can confidently say that i think this whole thing is worth the effort?
or should i not think about whether it is worth it at all?

i'm a little bit tired.
i'm glad i found him
but at the same time i'm scared that we were never meant to be
and i'm tired of the heartache that comes every time i think of him. think of what will happen to us
the fear is always there you know?

i need sleep
i need a hug